Can we Escape from our Thoughts?
Karl thought this was good when i said it so i am writing it here
‘Truth’ is the Ultimate Belief System
of course i mean intellectual so-called truth
i think i would like to free myself as much as possible from the need for belief systems…
trickier than we think.. but i can half imagine what it would be like it we were free of them
meanwhile it’s nice to play with ideas though
Lying in bed this morning had one of those waves of realisation and remembered something i have often thought but forgotten - it’s all entertainment, it was only ever meant to be a bit of fun.
somehow along the way we all started believing it and taking it seriously.
Years ago a friend (his name is Steve and he and his wife Emily are thinking Buddhists) said to me that most people think they have to keep all these balls juggling in the air but they only have to keep one in the air and they don’t even need to keep that in the air. That it’s all the same stuff. That statement was such a relief to me. Three trillion lines of programming feel away and three thousand items on my ‘to do’ list. I like people who reduce my to do list by whatever means - tasks around the house or just being calm so i don’t worry about it all….One of the greatest reliefs of the last few years has been seeing the list go down. One day i hope to get to the stage where it’s all just inspired in the moment.
We have all these desires but they just are never satisified - perhaps the only true desire is to end all desire. The only purpose to get to a state where we don’t need a purpose - just in state of mind where we enjoy doing whatever needs doing, everything done in that joyous creative state. I feel like this loads of the time but certainly not all. I remember a time when i was schoolgirl when it was all something to be got through so it’s moving the right way.
I am sorry though that i sent a birthday card late to my Mum although she won’t get in a stew over it - she’s just not like that. And i am sorry i missed my aunt’s funeral - it just was too difficult in the end because of practical things here - but have promised myself that i will make necessary changes in my life so that i can link up with my extended family more in future - i think i have more in common with them than i realised - i hardly ever see them and they are very nice people.
Watched DVD of Ali G in Da USA last night with Bruce - episode after episode - we had to stop after about 2 hours because Bruce was in too much pain from laughter -how does he (Sacha Baron Cohen) get away with it?- it’s beyond belief - anyone else would be banned. I love it.
The crystal manna is amazing - my whole body was pulsating with energy last night from just 1/4 tsp. The great thing about being on raw a long while is that these things start to have big effect. Still want to find out more about the problems people have on raw because although i feel i have the basic methodology in place i still suspect that there may be subtle missing factors long term that we don’t understand - not sure how it happens - whether it’s that as humans we have adapted in some respects to eating cooked food, or whether it is to do with the food choices that raw foodists like to make. Occasionally i do some random eating even if it temporarily makes me feel groggy just in case there’s something i’m missing - maybe it’s a bit silly but i’m not sure. Whatever the situation really is, i do feel healthier and happier now than i have ever felt before that i can remember and to me how i feel and how the children are seems the only thing i can be sure of - the experience of life day by day. And at the end of the day that’s what really counts.